I possess a deep and strange obsession over a fictional character I’m Qrow trash
Did a little experimenting with Sai and whatnot. Even in visual art we must find our own voice, and I figured that there’s no use in me trying to shape mine to imitate someone else’s.
For the past few days, I’ve been trying to finish a piece that isn’t working out, only because I was trying to make it using a style that, if I were to be completely honest with myself, I wasn’t entirely comfortable with. It’s a beautiful style, one I wish I could at least have half the talent to do. I became very frustrated at the fact that I couldn’t do it properly (or how I imagined “properly” to look like) and ended up erasing and redrawing and erasing some more, until I realized I was spinning in the same self-destructive, downward cycle that caused many of my stories to fall as aborted files inside a cobwebbed laboratory of imaginings. I became upset, but unlike when I was younger, I didn’t give up just yet. A couple of birthdays didn’t just add to my age–it added to the layers upon layers of stubbornness and grit.
So I sat down once more on my bed that needed a bit of dusting off, and thought about the clothes I had to wash, the plates that have been piling up next to my desk, the things that I have to fulfill as a responsible adult who, in all honesty, never wants to grow up. Sitting there, in the silence and solitude, I shut up all the voices in my head for once in my paranoid, obsessive-compulsive existence, and just… drew.
It’s not a masterpiece or anything. But it gave me a little bit of hope.
~Blue Popsicle~
03.08.2017
Sketches from Shayne’s Notebook
My good friend Shayne once gave me a small notebook around November last year. I would let it sit beside my bed, among a clutter of books and other journals, for the next few months, until recently when I felt it was the perfect time to open it. If it wasn’t for her, I would have forgotten how art has always been my medicine, my cure. So I dedicate these handful of sketches to our loony, ludicrous, lovable friendship.
~The White One~ // Sylas Frostmoon
~Ember Eyes~ // Avell Lunarswift
~Agent of Armageddon~ // Ellie Hollowcliffe
~The Armoured Destroyer~ // Kleinn Helstrom
~Swordmaiden of Vengeance~ // Sylvia Luceus
~Silver Dragon~ // Gennai Onaga
All characters are from WildStar, created by me and @guiltyeleven





